Agnostic

I often tell people that I'm agnostic--no God, no beliefs. But the truth is I only tell people that I'm agnostic so that they wouldn't ask about my faith: why I don't pray before and after meals, why I don't pray before and after bedtime, why I don't go to mass, I don't take the communion, and so on and so forth.

I truly believe in God. He is our creator. He is the supreme being who controls the world. He gave us His only Son... his son died on the cross for us to save us from our sins. He would come on the judgement day... to bring us to heaven and punish us to hell. 

Coming from a Catholic and Christian school, I know a lot of prayers--the different prayers we pray for the sick, living, dead, etc. Even the songs, I know a lot of songs to sing during masses, celebrations, etc.... as the great Saint Augustine said, "Singing is praying. When one sings one prays twice." 

These days, I've been talking to God a lot and bargaining Him half of my life for something I really wanted right now. But he's been hard to convince, playing hard to get all sudden. In the past months, He'd been answering my prayers as fast as the speed of light... answering prayers and wishes side by side. Everything was flawless. Not until June came--my birthday month. 

It's my birthday... Shouldn't He at anytime of the year punish me and not on my birthday? Can't it not wait, even just a day or two to let it pass? Don't Good Girls Deserve a Break Once in Awhile to the reality of life?

Yes, indeed, I am questioning God. Why does his decision have to be so firm now? Can't it break? Can't it wait a little while? Can't he stretch it a bit and give this girl what he wants? Can I really not have what I've been praying for now? 

I think his decisions are firm that I cannot have this... Or at least, I want to believe, not yet... not this time. 

love, now and always, 

Hello Summer!

Here's a summer song dedicated for all of you! It's starting to feel hot... Hello Global warming extra HOT summer days!

BTW, wait up for my post  tomorrow. It's quite a sad, sad revelation. :( Love you all!

oOoOoOo

A little piece of me

It's a little piece of you

A little taste of summer, A taste is so so true

You were the first one that I keep in my life

A little piece of sunshine, It's summer...

Hold me, Love me and Trust me

So all I wanna hear you say

Kiss me, Feel me so love me

It's a dream I love to see, to stay

A little bit of crazy & the heart that makes it good

A certainty of loving when I look at you

I feel the one thing that I never thought before

You become the one thing I adore...

Hold me, love me and trust me

So all I wanna hear you say

Kiss me, Feel me so love me

It's a dream I love to see, to stay

Take me to the places that you've been

I want to know the faces that you've seen

So this love can begin...

A little piece of me

A little piece of you

A little taste of summer

It's so true

*Hold me, love me and trust me

So all I wanna hear you say

Kiss me, Feel me so love me

It's a dream I love to see, to stay

Repeat *

A little piece of me, A little piece of you...

love, now and always, 

The Art of Falling In Love

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost.  What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! you know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you’re not part of it.

Everything happens for the best.  If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you give it a try.  You’ll never love a person you love unless you risk for love.  Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, you don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow.  Don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall.  You just fall.  You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress.  It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.

The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don’t ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.  To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart… the more when the person you “secretly” love doesnt care at all… or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you’ll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart.Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk, if you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love ‘coz every time we do, we get hurt, then i figured that’s why it’s called falling in love.

love, now and always,