Myths about my death

I believe I will die early. Prolly, in my mid 40s or early 50s. Before any member of our family. My parents would grieve about my death, this will be mother's greatest heartache. My brothers will treat this as a wake up call that life is too short. Father is as strong as usual but with the greatest pain of them all.

I know it will be a painful death. Only I. But my physical death wouldn't be felt by anyone else but me... I won't be able to breathe. I would feel every single pain. All the pasts pains will come back. I wouldn't scream. There won't be any marks of blood. I will cry. Then my heart will just suddenly stop beating.

No one will know the exact time of my death or how I died, for everyone was at rest. I will die between midnight and sunrise. I will die in the time where you have crossed the boundaries of reality, where you have reached the place of dreams and of fantasies.

When the sun shines, you will see my dead body-hard. You will hold me,cold. Feel my heart beat. none. call an ambulance. no. you will cry. I'm dead.

love, now and always,