No Pressure.

How many times have I told myself that I'm not gonna hope, expect and wish anything to him...
How many times have he had me heart broken?
How many times have he left me in this endless space that no boundaries restricts the pain?

how many times...
I've borrowed a hundred hands to help me count through the fingers of their hands...
but still none would measure the pain.

This post is emotic. yes. undeniably. it is.

This post shows again how deep my love for him...
I waited 5 longs years. Why not wait more?

Why wait more?

I'm starting to run out of reasons in waiting...
my hands, don't grip hard anymore, it let loose, it lets go...

Why wait more?
This is the last. and if this don't work, I'll just let it GO.

how many times have I said that? How many times have I been true that I'm letting him go?

how many?


I've lost count.

love, now and always,